As a little girl, it was my dream to become a fashion designer. A dream I gave up on on the age of 14, because I thought it wasn’t realistic. I got into psychology and that was what I wanted to do for the rest of my life, at least I thought so.
Choosing a path in life
In my final year of high school it was time to make a choice for my further education. I visited a lot of psychology and psychology related studies, but I just didn’t had the feeling that that was ‘it’. Even though I was so interested in psychology and I still am. Likewise I just didn’t see myself behind a desk listening to other people’s problems for the rest of my life.
I talked to a lot of people that were close to me and they all said that they saw me running my own business . A close friend gave me a wake-up call, he told me I am way too fierce to only sit behind a desk for the rest of my life. He told me that I had to be a boss, a leader, that was something I already was in real life. He saw me having my own fashion empire. And that’s when I saw it too.
Fashion has always been a big part of me and I don’t know where I got it from. I don’t have people in my close circle that are that interested in fashion. It all came from inside, I guess. As a 12 year old girl, I wasn’t only watching Nickelodeon series, I was also watching the Louis Vuitton SS12 show recorded from the Louvre’s Cour Carrée in Paris. I was so impressed by all the designs and I don’t know why but that show is still so fresh in my mind. That is the moment I knew that fashion isn’t just the way people dress, fashion is a true art. At least, it can be.
I have always been busy creating things. When I was at primary school I made my own magazine and organised a talentshow in the backgarden. Almost half my class joined the show and did their best with the most crazy acts. I let someone record it with my camera and I edited the whole movie before I uploaded it to Youtube, in an era Youtube wasn’t a thing yet.
At slumberparty’s me and my friends weren’t playing games like truth or dare. We made our own game; we picked some outfits from magazines like Elle and Harpers Bazaar (Vogue wasn’t active in the Netherlands yet) and the other girl had to guess the designer, I was remarkably good at it.
In the year 2012 we went with the whole family to Barcelona. My cousins and my dad wanted to visited Camp Nou, the stadium of FC Barcelona. During the whole stadium tour all I could think about was the street we were heading to next; Passeig de Grácia, the most expensive and luxurious street of Spain. I dragged my whole family into every designer store in the street and I am not kidding. My family is still joking about it, really. I asked for bags in the stores. Just a couple hours later I was walking through Barcelona, only 12 years old with more than ten designer bags on my arm.
I never forgot how I got treated like a royal at Louis Vuitton, even though I was only 12 years old and definitely not buying anything. The woman that helped me gave me a tour through the store and told me a lot of background information about the bags. She also gave me a couple catalogs and her visiting card, she put those in a bag and put a big bow on it, white with red polkadots I remember. She told me she was looking forward to seeing me in a couple of years, when I would make my first purchase at Louis Vuitton.
Louis Vuitton as symbol
After that, I wanted a Louis Vuitton bag like more than anything in the world. Ofcourse my parents didn’t gave me a bag that expensive at the age of 12. I didn’t understand then, I do understand now. I always thought that the women who wore those bags had life figured out, they were determined, hardworking and stylish. For me the Louis Vuitton bag became a symbol for that.
Last month, I bought my first Louis Vuitton bag, something my 12 year-old self wouldn’t believe. I believed that if I had a Louis Vuitton bag I could have anything I want in life. I still believe that I can have anything in life, but not because of the bag. Now I believe it because of hard work and discipline. Anything is possible as long as you want it bad enough.
This goal was such a small one compared to everything that is coming next. I was a big dreamer as a child, and I still am. I won’t tell you all my other dreams, I prefer to show them to you one day.